Mfs nag about how I "don't shower" when I do everyday

How about you change that to "I haven't eaten in months" because I barely eat now because of this stupid drama (I do not have an eating disorder or anything alike; more like I'm just too depressed to eat)

Jesus I realize I had a habit of openly venting about my problems/drama that happens and I realized how stupid that is. ROFL I'm getting older and I seeeeee that I quite posted some really embarrassing things I regret now back when I was 13 to hell, 16. I realize there's no point and it's just fucking stupid. Regardless if I'm depressed or not. I'll still post ventart if it's not too related to drama or telling since I often draw when I'm upset. If there's things that need to be addressed/explained you can freely dm me personally. I need to separate online from real life, even if I think online is private when it's not. Otherwise I'm just realizing some mistakes and stepping forward. I really apologize and realize how dumb that is; if people can see me as some sort of "celebrity" figure then I shall try to be more careful with what I do considering with the amount of parasocial relationships people have. (If you know me, you know) I did alot of stupid shit I did when I was younger and hell recently. I also really apologized how I react to things like criticism, comments, drama, etc. I react quite poorly and dumb when it wasn't even worth it. It once got so bad I had a breakdown publicly. I still really apologize for how I was to CuriousCat submissions (I did make an apology abit ago though I had to take it down since at the time my personal life was at risk) I need to stop acting like a 10 year old, I have autism and that makes me twice as stupid and IIIII dooo not like it! If I do make a similar mistake without realizing it do tell me! I prefer if people had issues with me don't hesitate to message me about it.

Since I'm feeling happy and more mentally stable this month I think I'm almost ready to be back in business C:

https://discord.gg/KhV6HVzJqQ

Something I really really want for my birthday is Newgrounds support, really C:> It would really make me feel the awesomest I ever felt. My birthday is in less than 2 months (March 3rd)

My life will finally be complete, really

HELP This was just a random thought don't mind it too much

And yes I do infact do commissions for Newgrounds support/trade things/etc

Since I have lack of ideas.. I'm thinking how about I can let you people decide on what do you think and expect!! C: What would you like to see from me?

Ps; I apologize for purging my previous works; I will bring some back and post more C:

Since I can't be on Twitter for many reasons and current events (and depression, lulz) how about I can post here every now and then again? I can maybe dump some fun facts, play lil games of context clues, post art occasionally, maybe draw you people (yes you, people of Newgrounds. :3), meet more and comment on other peoples' stuff for fun, etc. I am quite the enjoyer of Newgrounds and I think being on Newgrounds is more fun and less anxiety inducing compared to Twitter and other places. There's a small chance though! I could be gone anyday and I sadly am still dealing with depression so there's not much I can do :P

I might also make an spare account for venting/schizoposting since I shouldn't do it on here, sorry for doing it on here though! I'm sure you must've been either concerned or annoyed or had fun with the lil games and tricks I did

What's the point of living if your family gets harassed? What's the point of living if you're on a Cps watchlist? What's the point in living if people are trying to get you expelled? What's the point of living when you're being falsely accused of something that was debunked? What's the point if the world wants you dead? What's the point? Really, what is it?

Over failing and not being able to fix a relationship. This is unfortunately the punishments I have to take. Might aswell do the people involved a favor.

You know what they say, there's no escape!

I have been abit desperate for art; so I am looking for art so why not commission people on here

I can pay through giftcards of your choice or Amazon wishlists

My mental health has been worsening alot lately due to certain events; which leads to impulsiveness and not thinking straight. I can not keep making mistakes forever, so I decided I think all of you people do me a favor; please give me the space so I can have time to think and process everything to improve myself. If I do not have the space that leads me to relapse (which unfortunately has been happening), I am not saying everyone needs to "heal fast" because hell I am quite the bitter person myself, I have my moments sometimes and I'm hurt from many things. I'm just asking for a kind favor that will benefit you and myself. I acknowledge I've done many harmful and shitty things in the past I do wish I could make up for and fix. I am responsible for those actions and do wish to apologize to the people I was quite an asshole to. I still don't think I'm a "groomer/pedo" though as I know for sure that's false and twisted to make me look worse. (I have debunked it before; it's completely false.) This has gotten to the point I am on a Cps watchlist and that one slipup can lead to me being taken away, my mother being harassed, etc. I would appreciate if I was given space if you want me to improve. (yes this includes your groupchats, commenting on me and my friend's things to start shit, contacting my family, posting about me, going after people who just talk to me, etc.) since I got into my senses this is what I wanted to say. I have been taking a break from many things and I haven't had time to be working on myself due to current events no matter how much I tried I end up relapsing when something happens. I can't keep doing this. I just hope you somewhat understand. I only wanted to make a statement so I can have space to improve myself. I suggest you who are involved to do the same. I'm saying this for everyone's sake, not to stir up anything. I'm sorry for everything and I can't keep doing this, I want to stop and I'm putting my foot down.