Hi Newgroundians

I am aware I have been recently slandered and pretty much cancelled for dumb shit I did when I was 13-16, I know I am not innocent and I'm not denying that. I was an awful person as a kid, especially to my ex. It didn't help that I was being heavily badly influenced by grown adults and environments who wanted to take advantage of my heartbreak and exploit me from when I was freshly traumatized, me being groomed and abused while growing up both online and in real life, growing up on the internet as a child, the like. It is extremely irresponsible how I wasn't contacted about this beforehand and so many others, and twisting the story especially ignoring the factors that others involved were also; Mentally Unstable, Abused, Children being Exploited To Hurt Eachother. I am not denying I didn't treat my ex badly because I did, and I deeply regret it with all of my heart and I even apologized to him countless times and we even agreed we were toxic to eachother. He isn't innocent either, he did the same things and not even I hold that against him. He completely avoided the fact that he did the same thing to me and acted like I was this Monster when I was a stupid 13-16 year old being borderline groomed by adults to hurt him. I completely get it; he was a child who was abused by the internet and not a good home, I wasn't either and he knows this but completely avoids bringing that up. I should not be defined by my past relationship from when I was a child, We both Hurt Eachother. I'm an adult now, obviously I have been trying to be responsible and not the same person. The people around me for the past 5 years can testify. I plan on making a video explaining my trauma and past dramas in the future, it'll take time to make since I have been sick and I'm still trying to finish highschool. I apologize for the wait. I also need space and time, going after anyone doesn't help anybody and makes everything worse. Regardless of how mentally unstable I was and being taken advantage of, I still did it and I am fully responsible. I am not trying to excuse myself, because I can never forgive myself for what I did and always wish I never did it; I just wanted to explain myself and hopefully have people atleast take some factors into consideration if they can take some of his. I think everyone should take into consideration that Everyone has Hurt Eachother, I do hope my ex the best on his healing process and that the world should treat him better.

On one hand, I'm glad I'm being held accountable in some form however I think it's extremely irresponsible to paint me as this irredeemable monster for doing the same things my ex did as a child. He has never even tried to put the effort into trying to talk to me. It makes it worse since this has been prying into my adult years and real life. I don't hold the past he did to me in the past, even if I'm traumatized I completely understand why he did it.

Made an awesome video to celebrate, I can't believe I managed to live up usual animal lifespan.

Remember the last post I made? I was at my lowest at the time up until quite recently. I now realized I don't need to please certain people, I learned to embrace it all. All thanks to an awesome friend of mine; what matters are the people I have and not ones who treated me like a dog for the past 5 years. I feel like myself again; even if something is missing why should that matter right now? I feel like I'm back home, where I belonged.

Moral of the story; don't give up no matter what. Even if some Spencer's and/or Hot Topic guys have treated you like a dog and tried to take you down. There's always a little bit of hope if you have people and if you embrace yourself.

Learn from my mistakes, or else you’ll loose a battle.

Life at the moment is literally hell and right now someone is grasping for straws; at this point what the hell am I supposed to do

It is what it is though. I have always been thinking about quitting for a long time after that whole thing, now I have another reason to. It’s why I’m not even around as much and I’m sorry guys.

If anyone says I quotetweeted their shit or whatever, that is literally not true. Even indirectly told them I didn’t and they still went schizo about it. LUL

You know how Newgrounds would kinda archive all of your deleted art? Now it's just half of it, atleast that's how it shows for me

Was this something Newgrounds added or something?

Been kinda out of the loop lately LUL

I'm honestly not happy with my current art soooo I thought I could ask for advice! If possible

Taaaaaaaaanks :}

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